Here I Sit Writing Letters From Prison
Here I sit writing letters from prison My Dearest Mom, I hope this letter finds you all well, blessed and full of Joy!
Thank you so much for the wonderful card, your letter with song words and puzzles. I appreciate and love you very much! I am at yet another prison, I am going to try to work my way North again.
Meanwhile, I will try to get into any all programs I can I got on every waiting list I could! There is a waiting list for everything here. I spoke with the beautiful Shonna last night. She has not heard of plans for Christmas from your Deb. I am going to call on Christmas but, the beautiful Shonna said evening would be best. That will be a year back together already! I look at our pictures over the years I can’t believe I have been head over heels in love with her for almost 35 years.
Trials Patiently Awaiting The Unknown
Through all the trials pain and joy. I would not change the outcome for anything/everything! I can’t wait to come home and show all of you the better me.
Just as Gold must be purified through fire. I too had to be refined (and still working on it) Just wish it would not have taken so much for me to wake up and pull my head out of my butt! Thank God he never gave up on me! Neither did you! As much as Shonna is a gift of God too my life, so are you! All of you! God gave me a mom, soul mate, children and sisters! What an incredible blessed and man I am! For this I am truly thankful.
Now,Here I sit writing letters from prison I just wait on my appeal and law changes to bring me home. The weather here is a bit chilly but okay, how is it there? How are you? how is your health? Well I guess I will scoot for now mom. I love, miss and appreciate you very much! Happy and Merry Christmas to all. Please give my love and greetings to all! I am with you all in spirit always. Your Son Kenn Here I sit writing letters from prison on 2018Dec22
Good day my love, I hope this letter finds you all well.Here I sit writing letters from prison blessed and full of happiness.
I also hope you are staying warm. It has been freezing and windy here! Who knew hell was actually cold. I made a trade for some more paper so no worries my love, calling you in a few hours. It’s almost 2019!
Maddie will be 18 in a couple of weeks 18! ahh How is it I am getting old (and look it) and you’re not (and don’t)? Geesh boy sure are lots of rumors flying around about the new year! I just hope a few of them are true! I sure want to come home asap! And feel it’s getting close here I sit writing letters from prison.
Health and Well-Being
Not sure if I told you but, still no luck on my RMA diet. The guy that approves it is a Muslim he sent me two ducats (two weeks in a row) but, did not make it to either appointment. I spoke with the Muslim inmate leader as well as the chapel clerk. They advised me that the reason Mr. Saafir has not approved the RMA meal plan I have been on for a few years nor made the appointments he set 12/17 and 12/24 is because I am Christian!
I am not sure if this is true but, here I am 24 days into my stay at this place and I do not have a way to receive my proper meal. I will give Mr. Saafir one more chance to rectify this situation before I write him up in a 602 which I have been told that if you (an inmate) write a 602 in this prison custody does and will retaliate against you. It just gets better here all the time!
Attorney Generals Office Here I Sit Writing Letters From Prison
I wonder when the last time the A/G’s office checked this place out? Come on new governor make some changes. Lord, change their hearts from stone to flesh. That’s another sad thing – I tried to attend a Christian program here called ‘Gatekeepers” that I was invited to last weekend and was shunned by a larger number of the membership while in line. Comments about you must be on our list, you just can’t show up for free cookies? Not that I care about free cookies but, our Jesus never said that to all he fed! He just said break the bread into pieces and pass it out He made sure everyone was fed. I have never felt so unwelcome.
Prison System Needs To Be Audited
Oh, and lets not forget the constant racial issues here. Hispanics and blacks for the most part but, a defined racial divide is present here of course not with drug sales or homosexuality. not sure why but, I seem to be almost exempt from it. I guess because, I refuse to be pulled into any of that stuff! geesh even when I have food I can’t heat it up. The wait for the one microwave on this floor is at least an hour.
The ‘hot water’ dispenser for coffee and soups has been broken for months (so I’m told) and my hot-pot was taken away from me when I arrived because, these building are made of wood! Its’ OK to smoke tobacco, weed, or shoot up drugs using a home-made lighter – drink pruno, fight, have gay sex but, please don’t heat water for food even though you can’t have the food that does not make you sick! Okay, woof my rant is over. Sorry, I don’t mean to complain but, I should not even be in prison. I miss my family.
I have not seen my beautiful soul mate angelic face in months – can’t even hold her hand, I’m heartbroken! Please father let me go home. I have missed seven-year of my family. I am a new creation in you Lord. Please give me the strength I need to trudge on and claim victory in Jesus name. Please Lord give my family the strength and desire to stick with me through all things and not leave me again. Amen sorry, my love it’s just tough here. I don’t know why we are being fire baptized and tested. For all of this strengthening the Lord sure must have big plans for us together!
I miss you bunches! I can’t wait to get out of here. Put my arms around you and never let go again! Sorry, if I seem ‘needy’ but all this separation wears on me. I pray for strength (mine and yours) daily. I just got off the phone with you. You make me strong and happy. Thank you my love for all you do! I appreciate you my sweet, beautiful soul mate I find it strange that there is now only 2 charges/convictions list on my stuff now?
Hmm that couple with the base term of 6 years sure makes me wonder? and why I was changed from Med-A custody to Medium B? Weird hopefully a good weird. I have put in 6 years 5 months in state prison. 11 months in county jail plus over a year of milestone credits! So, I think they should let me go home now to my wonderful loving family.
I wonder what are the base on the two convictions listed on my file now, can’t be more than 10 years for both!
New Laws Patiently Awaiting The Unknown
I am interested to see what transpires next month. I guess rumor also has it CDCR needs to release 30k inmates in 2019 to comply with fed orders? That would be consistent with the new ankle monitor devices and agreement with Global-Tel who knows the Lord has the perfect plan praise our amazing God!
So, imagine what would you and I be doing right now if I was home? After praise and prayer? Sunday, morning I get up at 0500, kiss your forehead, pray, workout, make family breakfast, shower, dress for church, after church family day! Games movie day trip etc. get home make dinner family time, bedtime for family, I stay up to do laundry make lunches for you and kids etc for next day. Iron your and my clothes for next day. Go to bed, pray snuggle and squeeze you tight, muah! hehe Sorry, I can be silly at times.
Meanwhile back at this place. I am finding myself talking to these younger men gang members mostly about change, evolution into something better, exploiting resources, turning the negative into positive, etc. I just hope the Lord gives them the motivation for change! Yes, I pray on it. My love, Okay, well guess I will close for now.
I will write again in a couple of days I love, miss, appreciate, adore and desire you very much! Eternally yours, please give my love and greetings to mom, Austin and Madison Muah. Here I sit writing letters from prison on 2018Dec29
Happy New Year! I hope this letter finds you all well and blessed. Here I Sit Writing Letters From Prison and another year fly’s by.
I hope all is well with you. I also hope you are staying warm It has been very cold and very windy here for about a week. We have old single pane sliding windows here so the cold comes right in. Last night I had to put two sets of clothing on but, it was still cold. Also, our bed frames/pans are steel so they stay cold also, I can’t wait to move closer to home and get out of this place. Actually, I can’t wait to get home to my family.
Job and Vocation
They gave me a porter job here from pm til pm no pay and computer vocation from am to am so at least I can obtain more training and certifications and earn another six weeks off in 4 months, if I am here long enough to complete it.
I was able to talk to the beautiful Shonna last night. She was home trying to relax I sure can’t wait to wrap my arms around her! All of you for that matter. I miss you all very much! I hope and pray this year brings some relief for all of us in these prisons. Sooner the better still no word on my last appeal update either? Well mom guess I will scoot for now. I miss, appreciate and love you very much! Please give my love and greetings to all, your son Kenn. Here I sit writing letters from prison on 2019Jan01